Shay Haberstroh

I realized about a year ago that I was losing my fine motor skills while cosplaying and doing makeup, just due to symptoms of illnesses and general progression of declining in my health more. It’s been a lot to handle as someone who’s hobbies and passions always stayed with art and creating. Makeup, drawing and sewing aren’t what they used to be for me but it’s also a good push for myself in therapeutic ways to keep trying as long as I can so I don’t lose my fine motor skills even faster. I’ve done press on nails since the pandemic started and since December I’ve been teaching myself to do my own nails, mainly gel x (safely, do not worry!!! My MCAS makes it an extra concern for allergies so I don’t mess around), and other forms off press ons by making my own. Lately I’ve been pushing myself to do more designs which pushes the limits of my motor skills incredibly. Something super frustrating during the process but immensely worth the outcome! 🥹🩷

Obviously drugs are bad random white man in my comments but the only thing that’s bad inside of my body is the genetics !! 🧬 🥴 also fun fact! You’re not immune to my life or the illnesses I suffer from, either; so this too could be you, unwillingly!! Luckily I’m in palliative care and this was something we knew could happen, due to, yanno… me only having maybe 1/2 of a small intestine- less than, inside of my body… absorbing absolutely no nutrients and being the same, underweight self since the coma in 2016 but yes thanks for the random reminder that drugs are bad!!!! 🫣🤭🙄 about to lose some reproductive organs in the next few months too, I’m really going for a record huh

Sometimes I am thoroughly convinced the world gifted me his soul as I started dying more because it knew I had extra years left to give and take, and with him I could actually gain the want to try again. I won’t lie, I’m on thin, there’s not a lot of room to stretch in my mental for all I go through and most days are harder than I’ll ever let on. But losing out on any more time with Zak scares everything inside of me, and not just for my own sake, so I have the best reason ever to fight harder and harder. I know who I was before I met him, and I know I wouldn’t be here during this all if that was the case. I’m very grateful the world gave me this connection when I deeply, truly needed it most. I love you @zakexists ! ❤️‍🩹

Very attractive thing when everyday your talks are always in agreeance with how things are in the world; also when he wants to fight certain aspects for me because it’s against me, I love him!! @zakexists